…when you star in one really good film, and then you refuse to even try to star in another one as good for the rest of your life. This. Is. What. Happens.

Diesel costarred in Rob Cohen‘s better-than-decent The Fast and the Furious (’01) and yes, he had a good supporting roles in Boiler Room and Saving Private Ryan. But Find Me Guilty was the peak, and that was 15 years ago.

HE is not grief-struck about anything. I’m just saying that the bottom visual is, from my perspective, a fairly accurate depiction of what reality feels like on a moment-to-moment basis. Not any specific dominant color…nothing too precise or cleanly compartmentalized but a fluid, scattered jumble of impressions and decisions, nine or ten colors at once, several balls in the air.

I’m still persuaded that (a) Breaking The Waves has the greatest ending (and is among the greatest endings of any film, ever), (b) Dancer in the Dark is the most lyrical, rhapsodic and emotionally devastating (not to mention one of the finest musicals ever made), (c) Dogville is the most severe and socially condemning, (d) Melancholia is the least memorable, (e) the two Nymphomaniac films are the most didactic and the least startling, (f) Manderlay is underwhelming and (g) Antichrist and The House That Jack Built are tied for being the most despairing or dispiriting. I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve never seen Europa, The Boss Of It All, The Idiots and The Five Obstructions.

The other day Paul Schrader posted that photo of his 20-year-old self from the spring of ’67. Given the current mindset of the community of friends and collaborators that he runs with, Schrader felt obliged to disparage the rural-white-kid look that he had at the time.

Facebook: “This is [what] white living in Michigan can make you and there was nobody to say, ‘Man, you’re white'”

As in “man, you’re hopeless…that look on your face, that smug Columbia T-shirt….you need to get out in the world and rumble it up and suffer some hard knocks and see what’s what.” Which all young people need to do.

The under-implication wasn’t just that the Schrader of ’67 needed to learn and grow and mature — the implication was that his Michigan whitebread background was an expression of inherent blindness and perhaps worse. He was a flawed human being because of his skin shade, his family heritage.

Which, of course, is the current view everywhere — white folk are inherently rotten apples unless proved or re-educated otherwise. And so I just posted the following (which no Hollywood liberal-progressive would dare share in a workplace):

Speaking as a bruised victim of attempted Twitter jackal Stalinist wokester cancellation, I should be the last person in the world to advocate for anyone’s cancellation for some political-cultural offense.

I would nonetheless be delighted to see Marjorie Taylor Greene get cancelled, censured, bitchslapped, tarred and feathered, etc. For the sheer emotional pleasure of it. Partly because of that rancid face-palm analogy between enforced mask-wearing and Jews being forced to wear yellow-star badges by Nazis, but also because I loathe the twangy downmarket sound of her voice.

Yes, I know she’s playing a game called “wind up the libtards.” If she was a cockroach, I’d squash her flat.

Pete Davidson during last night’s “Weekend Update”: “[Masks weren’t a refuge] because everyone can still recognize me from my eyes. When you see someone who looks like he just woke up and hasn’t slept in days, it’s me.”

With these words Davidson, whom I’ve regard as a great, nakedly honest, world-class actor-writer-comedian since catching his performance in The King of Staten Island, acknowledged that he’s not Cary Grant, and that he radiates a basic mood medication-meets-Staten Island strangeness. And so he was encouraged (told) to grow out or otherwise “normalize” his hair for Judd Apatow’s film.

But since King opened, Davidson has been rockin’ a tennis ball, despite the universally accepted maxim that guys with extreme facial features need to modify this with a little hair flow…a little follicle smoothitude.

Davidson seemed to be saying last night that he’ll soon be leaving Saturday Night Live. Presumably so he’ll be free to play supporting oddballs in DC and Marvel films. What he needs to do is star in another King of Staten Island-type feature, but without the stoner friends or the Staten Island backdrop. He needs to play the witty, sexy, unbalanced guy of the 2020s…to play “Pete Davidson” in a long series of real-deal, here-and-now, cultural-state-of-things comedies, romantic and otherwise. He needs to be a new strain of the Woody Allen thing.

PD: “AIDS is just like SNL. It’s still here, except no one has gotten excited about it since the ’90s.”

“Give Anders Thomas Jensen‘s Riders of Justice a try,” a friend suggested. “The new Mads Mikkelsen film. Very wacky, very funny, very violent. Even sentimental. Tonal shifts extremely well handled. Great cast of offbeat characters.”

“Wacky, funny and violent,” I replied. “Check.”

“You’ve seen it?” he asked.

“No,” I answered. “Just not a huge fan of wacky, violent and funny. Because that means it’s probably an arch attitude thing or an ironic genre commentary of some kind.

“Oh, yeah, one other thing — violence can’t be funny. In actual life violence is the most anti-humorous, anti-mirthful element on planet earth. It kills everything in sight, anything that isn’t malicious.

“The violence in George Miller’s The Road Warrior had a droll, cynical, acrobatic-circus-act quality. Miller’s Mad Max: Fury Road retained that attitude. But generally I hate films that try to deliver mordant humor out of psycho killings, shootings, slicings, beatings and whatnot.

“The idea of a director ironically standing outside a film and trying to goad an audience into smirking or chuckling at violent blood-letting has always struck me as a cheap device, and since the early ‘90s every two-bit Quentin Tarantino wannabe director, it seems, has given it a go. Violence on it own terms, okay. But not the chuckling kind.”

The film is called Stu, and these are easily the most horrifying photos I’ve seen all day. Mark Wahlberg + tennisball buzz cut + at least 30 if not 35 pounds. (Real + fat suit.) Directed and written by Rosalind Ross, starring Wahlberg, Mel Gibson and Teresa Ruiz, produced by Wahlberg and Jordan Fass, and exec produced by Colleen Camp and Miky Lee.

I went searching for Sam Waterston‘s death eyes in this scene from the director’s cut of Oliver Stone‘s Nixon (’95), and in so doing was reminded of how good this Helms-vs.-Nixon confrontation scene really is. Perfect focused and haunted performances from Anthony Hopkins and especially Waterston — God, he’s so much better at conveying chilly remove than caring and compassion.

The eyes have it at the 9:13 mark.

3:30 Pacific Update: Siteground has fully updated HE, but in so doing the five posts I did earlier today have been wiped out. I’ve reposted four of them — a fifth has been lost.

Earlier: Upon the advice of a couple of in-the-know tech guys, I recently decided to switch web hosts. I’ve been with the Austin-based WP Engine (cloud-enabled rather than hard drives) since early ’17, but they more than doubled their monthly fee a couple of years ago.

So after checking around I went with Siteground, a Bulgarian outfit (their main location is in Plovdiv) that has “offices” around the globe. They’re a highly professional company, I’ve since discovered, with English-speaking reps who are polite, knowledgable and technically precise.

The only problem with Siteground (for me) is that they don’t offer phone service — it’s all texting, and all kinds of involved protocols and form fill-ins just to contact their webchat tech reps, and so you have to basically piece things together as you go along and learn the ropes like a beginner.

I’ve been with three or four web hosts since HE launched in August ’04, and every time there’s been a switch I’ve paid a migration fee ($100 or $150) to the new web host and they handled all the tricky stuff.

Not with Siteground — site-owners (or their tech facilitators) have to figure it all out themselves. Siteground offers a small amount of professional assistance for $30, but they certainly don’t hold your hand.

Here’s what happened, and why 10 or 11 days of HE content is missing and why the site is currently stuck on May 12th: I made my first payment to Siteground on May 12th, and all that meant, in my mind, was that I had paid them money to provide web hosting service to Hollywood Elsewhere — nothing more. I thought that the actual transfer of data (words, photos, links) and the web-hosting switchover from WPEngine to Siteground wouldn’t begin until I told Web.com to “point” the contents of Hollywood Elsewhere away from WP Engine’s IP address and toward Siteground’s IP address. (There are also “main server” numbers, blah blah.)

Well, I was mistaken. Or I was told and I didn’t understand. But the transfer of the vast HE library, I now realize, began immediately upon paying them their fee on 5.12. Switching from one IP address to another is a technical necessity, but the heart of the transfer happened (or began) on 5.12.21 and was completed on 5.13.21.

And so when the IP migration “happened” last night, everything I had posted from Thursday, 5.13.21 to Friday, 5.21 (or last night) was suddenly missing. Because Siteground doesn’t make it crystal clear to dumbass clients like myself that upon paying them on 5.12.21 I had to immediately commence with the IP address migration process and the propulgation that results. This is how 10 days worth of material is now missing, and will not be restored until Siteground gets around to re-migrating the whole kit and kaboodle. Which might take 12 or 24 hours…who knows?

From the start of my chats with Siteground I kept saying “I’ve never acted as my own tech administrator before…this is not my area of expertise so please explain everything three times, as you would to a child or a golden retriever…so I don’t make any mistakes.”

Instead, they spoke to me as if I’m a seasoned tech guy who knows how to handle this stuff, and in so doing they allowed me to think I could wait 7 or 10 days before switching the IP address, and so the erasure of several days’ worth of material has happened.

In short, Siteground couldn’t be bothered to spell out the fact that paying them their money meant that the transfer would begin immediately and that I had to do my part (authorizing an IP update or transfer) right away or else. “An IP update is different from a site transfer,” one of their tech guys finally explained this morning. They absolutely did not make that clear to me, and now I’m exhausted from all the grief and stress and back-and-forth.

I wasn’t always a self-employed journalistic brand. In my 20s and 30s I was hustling jobs and leads like everyone else, and so I naturally put a lot of care and effort into maintaining a handsome, well-ordered professional resume. I might have been dying inside, but the better the resume looked, the better I felt.

I stopped thinking about resumes 30 years ago, thank God, but now, thanks to the terror of Soviet Millennial wokester blacklisting, I’m thinking it might be wise to step back into the resume pit. Just to be on the safe side.

The paywall thing (launching soon) will generate income and I expect that award-season ads will happen next fall (as they did earlier this year), but who knows if things will work as planned? As far as maintaining the relatively modest Jeff-and-Tatiana lifestyle is concerned, I mean.

So I’m creating a new resume and will begin to sniff around for opportunities. It’s like being 33 again…love it! Life is a barrel of excitement, never a dull moment, etc.

“Dear Prospective Employer: I’ve been a hotshot Hollywood journalist-columnist-critic for three decades now, and I’m proud and satisfied to say that my professional life has flourished during this period. But lately the jackals have been circling and taking little flesh nips and drawing blood, and so after some reflection and meditation,” etc.